Ups and Downs
It has been a strange time these last few weeks. A surreal rollercoaster of stress, emotion and fatigue. A project that I started on almost 2 years ago at work finally went live this past Monday. I have been working pretty much 7 days a week, putting in anywhere from 10-14 hours a day for the last 2 months getting ready for the final implementation. Everything else in my life has been pretty much neglected. My family most of all.
I personally could not have pulled through this last stretch without the support of the incredible woman that allowed me to become her husband. My wife has been, and always will be my rock. I wonder if the folks a work realize how much they owe her? Probably not.
To top it all off we lost a friend and colleague this past week as well. That was the surreal part. His life had taken some unplanned turns the last couple of years and I really hadn’t been in touch with him very much. Even more sad because he lived and worked here among us. It has become entirely too easy to let relationships drift in this age. Excuses are many, and mean nothing in the end.
I saw many old friends tonight at his Celebration of Life. Many of these people I have known for almost 25 years, and like Rusty, we have drifted on our own paths over the last few. It seams that the only time we see each other is anymore is at another funeral. I’m not enjoying the irony here at all.
I am overjoyed that my life and schedule is slowly returning to the normal frantic pace that I can manage more easily, at least for a little while. I am saddened by the loss of a friend and mentor. I am exhausted by the long hours and lack of sleep I have endured for these long weeks. It is time to decompress, get back in touch with the ones that mean the most to me and maybe spend a little quality time with my camera again. That is as long as it’s ok with my wife. After all, it is because of her that I am able to enjoy this hobby of mine.